life, love and the pursuit of happiness

life has been shaky lately, numb days, decent days, and bad ones in between. i havent been to church in countless sundays, i've lost a lot of what i thought were good friends. one even told me my lack of attendance makes me no longer temple worthy regardless of if im living my life accordingly..wow the nerve of some people, but amazingly i'm really not all that concerned by it. i never thought i'd get to a point where i didn't care but i'm looking at it as a one less stress, battle, worry, i need right now.
yesterday was september 27, the day i was suppose to marry sam. for those that didnt know sam, he was my angel, nothing less than wonderful and though i shared faith and the gospel with him, he in turn taught me to love without being so guarded and live like there's no tomorrow. losing him has really been a hard hit to recover from.
the only thing i'm good at lately is working on myself physically. and i know i'm not doing that right but i take pride in the 74 pounds i've lost this year. i'm coaching lil kickers (micros) and playing on sam's indoor league (op fusion) at all american, it's a lot of work and very competitive but i cant say i dont love it.
well thats an update on me, more later..xoxx <3

To Write Love On Her Arms

this is an organization that's very near and dear to me..

To find out more about the To Write Love On Her Arms organization go to: www.twloha.com/

here in utah..

so im visiting utah, some of my favorite people on earth and of all the things to do while here, Desi has guided me through forming a blog. Do i really have anything of importance to say?..no, not so much. but because of my love for my sista from another mista..i did :)

yea thats all i got for now..you'll learn im no real blogger..

xoxx